Izz35178: troubled
Izz35178: naah
Izz35178: just lazy
Izz35178: and would rather think
MileRnr: and would rather think?
MileRnr: think about what?
Izz35178: i dunno
Izz35178: what to think abotu

MileRnr: hmm, what to htink about
MileRnr: you should think about guys
MileRnr: I mean, most guys think about women all day long, so it balances out.

Got an idea of where this one is going?

Well maybe not completely, Meg's leaving for England this Saturday, I'm a little sad too, just a tinge. I mean its not like she's dead, it's not like its permanent. Hmm, Erin Isbell sentimental over people, 3-4 years ago I would have laughed at anyone who told me I was emotional. The one who told everyone, "yeah don't be upset if I don't keep in touch.." But its as that Noble quote goes, "those who think about the past are unhappy with the present." Or something to that effect. But I'm only partially unhappy with the present.

Speaking of pasts. Note to self: you have not repeated any of the major mistakes from each semester, don't start now. Additionally, acknowledge the necessity to learn minor lessons, like don't be so damn clingy!

Dan says I should think about guys to even things out. Got that covered, with no problem. In fact that's one of my problems now. Which brings me back to the note to self and "Nate Mistake." So I will make my effort to not do that again and save myself the heartache and trouble, as much as the other half of my conscience tempts me.

Though I do learn best from screwing things up ... but I don't want to screw up this ... it's not like my relationship with Bobby, we could throw around our friendship at no real loss to either of us. I tell myself that, I do like the kid, I mean its, kinda the way it got set up, something to risk and throw around and be completely ambiguous about.

You talk about Fate, let it be, whatever happens happens.

More comfort talk, you kick yourself cause all your lists and rules seem to narrow it down to guys you can't have ....