"I think she's the saddest girl to ever hold a martini glass."

For some reason that quote means something to me today.

It's my birthday, I'm 21, I don't feel like I should be.

It's my birthday and I'm sad out of my mind.

The state of my room reflects my mental state and my room is a haphazard mess of stuff piled up everywhere. My mind is a haphazard mess, completely disorganized and depressed.

I'm crazy about Doc, and the very fact that I like him so much scares me because I am afraid of getting hurt. He's prolly one of my favorite surprises this school year.

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