Damn

I'm in complete awe that today is the 2nd of September. This whole weekend I've been in this pseudo-reality. I'm CDO, I have no privileges, and I'm at West Point, and I've very loosely obeyed all three of them. I very foolishly feel untouchable, every once and awhile wondering, "will they all catch up to us?"

To put it in the most basic terms, I'm happy.

I'm happy 'cause I've been hanging out with this really great group of guys in A3, I've gone out to the mall etc etc ...

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September 5, 2002

Sigh

I sigh a lot but this is a good one, a really good one ... what a great night

We all went out to the firstie club tonight, me, peter, doc, aj, roland ... i like the group they're great people, they have personality, they're exciting and chill at the same time ....

So im walking around in my preppy polo shirt dress, pink lip stick and all and aj's spiked bracelet .. its very suiting...

I invited doc at first just cause it was "right hand man night" and he seemed like he'd be fun to get to know ... i kinda hoped everyone else would want to go 'cause it's fun to go in groups. And they did, even Peter came, dressing inconspicuously in an attempt to not be noticed, which was especially necessary 'cause A3 had duty tonight.

I have traditionally been "the one girl in a group of guys who isn't dating any of them" ... I wonder how long that will last or if i even want it to ... I think this leads back to the tarot card reading i did with peter, what was it? I fear what makes me happy? Something like that ....

Perhaps you should take in consideration what you wrote before:

You talk about Fate, let it be, whatever happens happens