December 20, 2001

I'm feeling really lonely right now. Everyone is pretty much gone. Mike is still here and I like to talk to him, but I can't help feeling empty with the loss of Paul, Jason, and even my roommate. I feel like I am an energy vacuum lately, so I try to avoid running to other people, but its relaly hard. Like its so hard to sustain myself on my own.

In my scatterbrainedness I deleated the email that had my roomnumber for me last TEE. I have no idea where to go and I don't know who else is taking it. I feel pretty helpless.

Just talked to my friend Meg on AIM, she's back home. We're going to learn to snowboard, should be fun. I feel a lot better now, well time to go to sleep while that's the case.