Returning from Spring March 2000

Sigh, I've never been so miserable going back to West Point. And God I hate planes. So, the two put together is mind numbingly, terrifyingly, wretched. I feel so sick. I'm trying to distract myself with the movie and by writing, but the slightest change sends me whirling. I wish I could just fall unconscious so I wouldn't have to suffer through this agony-torture. I already miss them - I feel so alone - I want my family. This sucks! Argh! Shoot me I want to be home I want my home and my family

11:00pm home - 2:00am there - approximately 3 more hours. Even the thought of seeing George again can't set me at ease. It's mostly the horror I experience flying that hampers that. I hate it, I'm sick, I's sleep but I can't. I need to pass the time. Please hurry get me to Newark safe. Sigh help me Ohhh - sniff - agony Ohh well. My family - and George - why does being with either of them involve a plane trip? I wanna stay in California - hmm whimper help me I wanna faint. I don't like to fly Not at all. No No No Dizzy, Dizzy, Ohhhhh Gasp - Gasp - Gasp help me I wanna be home I want my family - Its so clear outside I can see the ground Usually there's clouds Heart racing seatbelt lights on mild turbulence twenty five times six 131 bpm I feel sick. Why does it feel like we're tilted to the left? Maybe not maybe I'm just paranoid I feel so alone I need someone My family, George, either them both of them

1130 It's only been 30 minutes. 2 hours 30 minutes left. Better seat belt light is off slightly better.

12:00am - 3:00am there are approximately 2 hours to go... Calming down ... barely ... Yawn 1:00am - 4:00am there ohh oops 12:45 maan still, almost there Nearly 1:10am aka 4:10am 50 minutes from 5:00 Golly I'm sleepy, whoa missed the line yea I'm so sleepy, but I can't relax my mind won't let me so my body won't either 15 after come on time move it 41 after - smile - almost there just about drowsey zzz hmm nearly 55 after feels like we're begining to decend dammit turbulence ack good all done Yess!! Initial desent 20min to go Choppy desent though gosh rid of all airplane belongings and trash ... still pretty high come on come on Damn my body hurts from flying, looking for first recognition of buildings .. scanning ... airplane noises starting ... rumble rumble ... there got it ... still pretty high ... increase in noise ... flight attendants be seated ... bridge recognized .. hmm dawn ... here we go looking for airport there ... touching ...got it brakes ... yay ground!